Alright, so I have this "friend", and believe me, I'm not a fucking push over, I don't consider her a friend anymore.
Her name is Mia...
She doesn't realize how much this ;; conversation hurt me.

"your a fucking retard "
"...why."
"because! you like joey! and he's a fucking faggot! "
"bitch about it. somewhere else."
"haha no` you dont see what im saying "
"nenig"
"your a fucking retard too. so your a perfect couple "
"...k?"
"yea` wanted to say that i herad he asked you to that dance at your school "
"...i said no..."
"he said that too he said you confuse him.... a lot`"
"i dont really care"
""
"so yeah. anything else?"
"`hmmmmm. well... he calls me a lesbian "
"...are you proud that he discovered your secret?"
"LMFAO, no its liiike... 'ur a LEZBAN!' and im like 'iii am nnoott! urrr juddgementall :L' then hes like 'im kidding'"
"why are you telling me this"
"ii dont know just thought you'd wanna know"
"yeah, ok."
""
"so... uh... do you like him?"
"liiike... who?"
"joey?"
"hahaha... idk`"
"do you?"
"idk? :S "
"yes or no?"
"urh. do you?"
"do i...what?"
"like joey?"
"yeah...? i mean, you brought it up. you know i do. a lot."
"ohh."
"well... do you?"
"would you bemad if i said i do? "
"not really. im glad you can tell me at least"
"yuhp would you be mad if i asked him out? ...i mean.. i think he liikes meeee. more then you anyways. "
"uuh. nenig whats fucking wrong with you?"
".what? im just asking..."
"FUCKING SHIT, STOP TYPING WITH THE GOD FORSAKEN FACE. you know, your a big bitch."
"...well. he doesnt like you anwaysy, so i thought that he might like me "
"I can't believe I considered you a friend."
then she signed out...

I swear, this was the conversation that has been making me feel depressed. He doesn't like me?
Not to mention the fact that she's not the only one of my friends to say that they like him. Tajia, Dyane and Whitney have said they like him, too. And believe me, it hurts. A lot. Because in my mind, they all have a better chance with him than I do. He doesn't like me. I don't know why I even try anymore.
None of them will realize how many tears I've spawned because of them, and him. I miss him terribly, and I wanna see him. But he couldn't care less. I'm nothing to him.

To think that I thought he liked me...

I'm such a retard... :'(